HIM

i see a man standing there..

there, 

in the garden which full of people

where people walking around the pond,

that man, staring at on object..

i see that..

he smiles while put his hand into his pocket

and i see he screams when something went wrong,

he lifts the object

well, i can't see clearly..

seems blur

and really blur..

he looks so damn sad,

he looks so damn regret

and

he looks so pleased 

.....with what happened.....

yeah, i still can't see the object

why? thought that my eyes are normal

so, why i can't see that object

damn

i go home then sleep for a while

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[in my dream]

i'm standing around a pond

with my infant body

in a big garden with many people surround

and

with a man i called ''AYAH"

i run after a butterfly

a big purple butterfly

who fly in front of me

i try to catch him, he looks want me to run after him..

Hey, Mr. Butterfly......

i'll catch you!!!

oops!

"mama.. mama.. mama.."

then Ayah comes to me,

and he looks so sad watching me in pain..

i fall down in the ground

and

hit a big rock..

[after all, a question comes to my mind]

Ayah, why you come to me

while i call Mama?

Ayah just give me his best smile, with no reason...

Ayah, 

even i rather call your name than Mama

please understand this, 

"you have your own place in my heart"

even i never told you my love's story

i know you pray the best for my love's life

even i always make you angry

i know you always patient to face me

i know you always try to make me happy

and give me the best

Ayah, sorry for being so rude with you.. i love your smile Ayah.. thank you for caring me, even i honestly rather feel that you care.. but every single actions you did, i know you care.. you treat me with an unspoken caring, i know that.. 

"I LOVE YOU AYAH"